Dear Readers,

I’m back again!

I wrote a couple of extra posts in the half-term, and this is one of them, so I’d thought I’d take advantage of the situation and do an extra post mid-week! Yay! I hope you all enjoyed reading my Q&A with Maggie, from Dreaming of Guatemala, it was such a fun post to make & highly requested so I hope it didn’t disappoint! ๐ŸŽ‰ *thank you once again to Maggie! ๐Ÿ˜‚*

Recently at school, things haven’t been so great with my friends *sighs*, so I decided to write down my thoughts in a letter entitled ‘To my Friends’ in order for me to get everything off of my chest. I thought I’d share it with you all incase you’re going through a similar rough patch to me, or incase you do in the future, as of course this is just life! ๐Ÿ˜Œ I know I can be quite positive in my posts, so I also thought it is also useful for you all to see that I am human too, and I do feel the same way as everyone else. Thankfully, things seem a lot better, so I am hopeful that everything should be back to normal soon โ˜บ๏ธ. 

It is also important to remember that you don’t always have to be friends with the people  you were friends with 4 years ago. We all grow & change as people, so sometimes you can fall out of love with your friendship group, and this is perfectly normal.

IMG_3689.jpg


To My Friends,

I guess you’re almost oblivious to how much you are hurting me. You didn’t notice for days after you’d all started it; you were off to L’s place, leaving me to stay at home and think over what happened. Again and again. Sleepless night after night. 

I felt alone without you all by my side. There was nothing: no texting, not even any conversation. You stopped talking when I entered a room and left when I was already in one. Why? Is it all in my head? I hope it’s not, otherwise I will have wasted a lot of precious time worrying. 

Then there was the lies, as if we were in a teen drama series on Netflix – ironic, huh? Why couldn’t you own up to what you’ve done? Why didn’t you tell the truth? I’ve so many questions I will never know the answers too. 

There’s so much I’ve learnt too. Don’t trust your judgements on matters like this, don’t assume you’ll keep anything secret, and that it’s so easy to just exist in your shadows without you noticing I’m there. Either that or I’m a really good actress…

I won’t be confiding in you in the future; I don’t know who I can trust. You shattered my world in the click of a finger, the blink of an eye – why should I feel fine?

We’ve been friends for different amounts of times, so I know who wasn’t their true self, and who I might have misjudged. I hope we can move on from here: it’ll be more difficult for some of you – what you did hit me deep down. I know you’re all good people, I want to believe that, I want a new normal. I want to be happy me again, I want to live and not just exist in your circle.  I’ll find a way in if I have to: I am determined.

Love,Autumn Signoff 3


So that’s that. I really do hope that everything gets fixed as soon as possible, I believe in myself to make it work, and I’m hopeful that my friends will want it to achieve a new normal too. I still love my friends with all my heart, I guess I’m just a whole lot more weary & careful around them now. It’s hard to explain what happened, so I won’t dwell & waste your time, it was mainly the aftermath that was the problem – I was excluded and made to feel as if I’d done wrong. I didn’t say anything I shouldn’t have… they did, however. Things got twisted, and I’ve ended up feeling unjust, they got away with a lot, from an outsiders point of view apparently there was ‘no meanness involved’. URGH….. ๐Ÿ˜ข๐Ÿ˜ข๐Ÿ˜ข!!!

Now I don’t mind missing out on their ‘fun’. I’d rather sit at home or chat to some other friends instead; once you’re excluded once I’ve found that after that, being left out doesn’t really matter or bother you anymore.

I hope you’re not left thinking ‘well that was a typical teenage ‘drama’, there’s more important things in life’. I know that there are a lot more important things going on, but recently this has been affecting me more, ok? I’ll apologise for the small rant though! ๐Ÿ˜‰

So what do you think then? Got any advice for me? Been through a similar situation? If so, 

IMG_1243.PNG

Also, good luck to anyone braver than me that is doing NaNoWriMo! ๐ŸŽ‰

Lots of love, 

Autumn x 

Posted by:Autumn

Hi! I'm Autumn, an avid reader, animal lover and keen photographer that wants to travel the world! Iโ€™m probably not your average teen, Iโ€™m not a firm believer in makeup and I donโ€™t own any social media accounts. I love stationary and all things paperchase, as well as baking yummy little treats! I've wanted to have my own blog for years, so Autumnโ€™s Angle is a dream come true! I hope you follow Autumnโ€™s Angle and enjoy scrolling through my blog. ๐Ÿ˜Š Lots of love, Autumn x

43 replies on “To my Friends

  1. Judging by the amazing blog post I just read, you know how to say stuff and that’s the most important thing about a friendship, being able to say exactly what you think, If you know something is wrong you need to say it, talk about it, let it out, because bottling it up will just allow it to build up until you reach breaking point, thankfully you’ve written it down, got your feelings out, now you need to talk to your friends about how you feel, good luck, amazing, amazing post xxx

    Liked by 3 people

  2. I had a really bad break with my friends in the last year of primary school, they were really mean to me, they left me and said they wanted to hang out with other people (among other things ๐Ÿ˜’) so I just left them, got new friends and had a great year. Them on the other hand, didnโ€™t click with their new โ€˜friendsโ€™ and had a pretty miserable year, they even asked if we could be friends again and claimed to have done nothing wrong. Now a couple years on from that and I have a new set of friends and Iโ€™m really happy, of course nobodyโ€™s perfect but sometimes you have to choose what can be forgiven and what canโ€™t. Trust your judgment โ™ฅ๏ธ
    On a happier note: I tagged you in the 2018 autumn favourites tag! ๐Ÿ’–

    Liked by 2 people

    1. Thanks very much ๐Ÿ˜Š for the lovely advice & support! I love when you say โ€˜nobodyโ€™s perfectโ€™, as this is so true & you have to try and remember everyone does make mistakes from time to time, even if they hurt you badly.
      Thanks for tagging me ๐Ÿ’œ, canโ€™t wait to try it! Autumn x

      Liked by 1 person

  3. gosh, i know how you feel. a few years ago i got quite badly bullied by a few girls – one who i thought was a friend, and has been the inspiration for songs, slam poems, and more – and it ended about 6 months to a year later with me finding new friends. i still have those now, and i’m so glad i found them. from what i can tell, you are a beautiful, smart girl who will make the right decision. trust your gut.
    rhi xxxxxx

    Liked by 2 people

    1. Thank you so much Rhi for all the lovely, kind words & advice! ๐Ÿ’š Sorry you went through a similar thing, itโ€™s really not very nice, is it? Autumn x

      Like

  4. Girl ๐Ÿ’– *hugs* Iโ€™ve been in multiple friendships where we went through a rough patch. Usually, it was because they were doing wrong and placing it on me ๐Ÿ˜• which usually resulted in the end of our friendship. I hope that isnโ€™t the case for your friends – itโ€™s amazing that you were able to write it out.
    Itโ€™s definitely better to hang out with people who care about you and are conscious of how theyโ€™re making you feel.
    Thanks for sharing this! I do the same thing on my blog – Iโ€™m positive and uplifting most of the time, but I also share posts that show other people that Iโ€™m still very much human.

    Liked by 1 person

    1. Thank you Maggie ๐Ÿ’— *hugs back* . Hopefully we can still be friends & it wonโ€™t end our friendship, but I get what you mean that sometimes you have to move on and become friends with people that actually care about you. Thanks for the lovely comment ๐Ÿ˜Š Autumn x

      Liked by 1 person

  5. This was amazing, and I’ve been in something similar. Me and my friend have tried to get back to her but it’s clear she’s ignoring us and after what happened before, we really shouldn’t try her again. Happy November to you, do you celebrate Halloween? I went trick or treating with my sisters and my friend. ๐Ÿ˜€

    Liked by 1 person

  6. I feel really bad this is happening to you. Nobody has the right to make you feel hurt. From the way you wrote this letter, you know what to say and I hope you can work something out with them. Hereโ€™s some chocolate in the meanwhile ๐Ÿซ๐Ÿซ๐Ÿซ๐Ÿซ hugs xxxx

    Liked by 1 person

  7. Girl, girl, GIRL! I’m EXACTLY where you are right now. School is hell for me – in fact, the whole year talks about me and I have no one to partner up with in group projects so the teacher forces me to partner up with someone who hates me. I mean, the whole school does. All I can say is, keep your head high and don’t spend your time worrying about people who don’t value you. You can talk to me whenever (: Hope it all gets better soon.

    – UniquelyMe โ„

    Liked by 1 person

    1. Aww! Thank you so much ๐Ÿ˜Š- I’m so sorry you’re going through something so similar- it’s horrible, isn’t it? I really do want it to stop, but it’s not as simple as just making it stop or moving schools, is it? (I’ve just started Year 10, so starting my GCSE’s, so I can’t move schools now!! ๐Ÿ˜‚)
      Also, we need to figure out what to do our collab on (I haven’t forgotten about it ๐Ÿ˜Š)!

      Liked by 1 person

  8. Awww Iโ€™m sorry to hear that Autumn! ๐Ÿ’— I hope everything gets sorted out soon, or you find some new friend if those ones were being really horrible and excluding you, because thatโ€™s not what true friends do. Hope it all works out! ๐Ÿ’—๐Ÿคž
    Hannah xx

    Liked by 1 person

    1. Youโ€™re so sweet Hannah!! Thank you so much for all the kind words of support ๐Ÿ’–๐ŸŽ‰, things are better now, but still not how they were. I think that time will help to make it better, but I agree that thatโ€™s not what true friends do, so Iโ€™m always weary around them now! ๐Ÿ’šAutumn x

      Liked by 1 person

    1. Well, kind of but kind of not really. It depends on each day, etc, but hopefully it’ll get even better this year! โœจ I wrote another post, ‘So Goodbye, my Friends’ in December, so it’s still not sorted properly, and I’m still confused. ๐Ÿ’ž I’m hopeful that it’ll sort itself out one day though, Autumn x

      Liked by 1 person

      1. Thank you Penny! (I know, but it’s tricky as I’ve been friends with some of them for ages ๐Ÿ’™) Thanks for the advice, it’s much appreciated! ๐Ÿ˜Š Autumn x

        Liked by 1 person

Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out /  Change )

Google+ photo

You are commenting using your Google+ account. Log Out /  Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out /  Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out /  Change )

Connecting to %s

This site uses Akismet to reduce spam. Learn how your comment data is processed.