So, as you may or may not know, about a month ago I wrote a post To My Friends. A lot of things have happened since then, but I guess I feel just as clueless as before; it’s like I’m stuck in a revolving door. *Pre-warning, I’m not going to be as positive as before though*
I decided to write a small, lil’ poem to just let everything out, because that’s what blogs are for; letting everything out & an escapism from our lives ✨.
So Goodbye, My Friends:
I’m stuck in a void of emptiness,
there’s nothing here: not even you.
You left me alone shivering in the
I haven’t opened up, I’ve kept myself
To myself. You haven’t found the key back in
I’m unsure you ever will. Sceptical. Scared.
Countless times I’ve pondered over events:
It’s not my fault – it’s yours,
At least there’s one thing I’m certain of.
But what happened,
I’ve accepted this. But what is left?
Friendships to save
Loose ends to tie
And a few goodbyes.
There will always be a place for you
In my fragile heart.
But you don’t realise I’m still hurting:
I haven’t stopped,
Won’t stop for a long time.
You never realised the consequence of your actions
And I’m afraid you never will.
I’ve shed too many tears over
Such a ‘silly’ matter.
It might be silly to you but to me
It brings me down.
I don’t know when, or
I’ll let you in again.
So goodbye, my friends.
I hope you enjoyed that! I was just talking to my mum in the car after some last-minute Christmas shopping (yep, my family definitely falls into that category! 😂), and we ended up talking about everything that’s gone on. It made me realise that I’m not over everything yet, and I don’t know when I will be, but I am hoping that next term I can start afresh.
I need to get everything out, because sometimes I’m not necessarily good at this.
I guess that I just don’t trust them at the moment; it’s like I am scared to get close to them again in case of being hurt once more. Half the time, they don’t even realise I’m upset, but this could be partially my fault. I don’t always join in conversations when they’re complaining about this & that… I don’t know. I am going to try to be more positive around them (please don’t get the impression that I haven’t been trying hard, because I have tried my best; I wrote them all nice Christmas cards & gave small gifts 💞 – I still care).
'It's not who you are that holds you back, it's who
you think you're not'. - Denis Waitley
Love that quote. ❤️ It’s so sweet & just nudges you to be a better person each day, I hope you love it as much as me.
So, that’s it for today everyone! See you soon for a few Christmassy themed posts,